Now everything seems to be piling on me like nobody's business!
Today I received, conservatively; 30 emails in my inbox, of which only 20% is email blasters from the school.
Tmr I have a meeting with the UOB-SMU client,
and I have to play the guitar for cell group meeting tmr, of which I'm horrible at it so i need LOTS of practice.
Then my ministry, bookstore just asked me to compile finances by the weekend ( I'm the treasurer for the team) and then ask me to rise up to be come a small group leader. So must attend more meetings! zzz. I think I talk to my team leader about it. Ha.. not too eager.
Then L'Oreal Brandstorm gotta prepare survey + prepare for presentation next Monday. Goodness. So fast.
Plus all the Uni-Y stuff, emails, planning and all.
And its only the 1st week of school!
Wow.
I was telling a friend, I feel useful. Haha. I always like to quote John Calvin ->
We're not made to be useless blocks of wood.
Anyway, somehow I managed to find the time to go register my driving at BBDC today. No class la, and during the trip I was reading this book Wild at Heart.
It's a superb book! I recommend all guys ( and girls ) to read it.
God made us Spirit, Soul and Body. And while most Christian books touch on the spirit, this one touches on the soul. It talks about how men are really created to be wild at heart. That there's something inside us that yearns to be more...
The Bible says we're made to be in God's image. And one thing the Lord is, is that He is a warrior ( Exodus 15:3). Although we see the gentle, graceful and merciful side of Jesus in the New Testament, we must never forget how He treats His enemies.
While most potrayals of Jesus are those of Mother Theresa like, we must not forget how he walked into the temple and overturned the tables of the traders, and how he 'picked fights' with the Pharisees. And how in the Old Testament, God sent armies, pestilence, plagues upon his enemies.
I think its no mistake, our God is a fierce, passionate warrior
And so are we men. The book says, that every man, in his heart of hearts, is looking for
1.a adventure to live for,
2.a battle to fight,
3.and a beauty to be swept off her feet.
I read it with a sparkle in my eyes. Haha. Now that's true.
No wonder all those war movies with potraying a courageous man willing to die for a cause ( Braveheart, 300, Kingdom of Heaven, Saving Private Ryan) always appealed to me, and I would hopefully think, to guys in general.
Then it goes on to talk about how society has really stifled this side of the man through its many 'don'ts', and through the pressure for him to be a 'nice' guy. I think there's a very interesting part, which really set me thinking: Is that question that alot men fear to know the real answer: Am I really a man?
And alot of over-achieving people are often motivated by this fear. This fear that they just might not be enough, and they might be 'exposed' that they are not real men after all.
Wow. It's an amazing book. I'm at Chapter 4 only, but this is really good. It hits the spot, really.
And it also talks about the three desires of a woman's soul, which are....
*end of post. To find out more, please stay tuned! =P*
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Monday, January 7, 2008
Post No.100!
Here at post 100 already.
Today's the third day of school, and the last day for the week! Muhahaha.
Yeah I did a two day week this semester, with 4 mods. I think I got really interesting mods like Ethics ( which my prof looks like Richard Branson, the CEO of Virgin Airlines) and Experiences in SME consulting, where my prof is the owner of one of the top SME consulting firms in Singapore.
So far so good; everything's going fine and thank God for complete healing. I'm feeling perfect today =). Well, everything's going back on track for 2008.
Exciting things to come:
1. Doing L'Oreal Brandstorm with Gershon and Charis. Always my honour to be in the company of church leaders. Heh..
2. Doing LKCSP Internal Case Challenge, but dunno with who. I still trying to find people, and asking Mr Vincent Ha to do with me but he doesn't seem very eager. I heard Gershon is judging this event. Haha.. so funny.
3. Doing the Citibank Case Challenge with Daryl, Xinhong and one more girl. Also my honour to do with them. I treasure the experience more than anything else la. To be stuck with zai people for one night and drawing whatever I can from them is just superb.
4. Webbie. Tianyi just showed me the amt of $$ he made from adsense just this week. I was like ...MOTIVATION (more than my monthly allowance la!). I told him to print screen that page and send to me as a jpg file. Now I leave it on my laptop. A reminder to not stop building no matter how slow I am.
5.Uni-Y. I just had a talk with Albert, the general secretary of YMCA, with Charlene and Daniel yesterday over dinner. I think we got more resources in our hands to do something big with Uni-Y than we think. He's even got the handphone of Eunice Olsen. Think might try asking her to come SMU to give talk. Heh. And then Steven Chia, maybe Elim Chew. See how la. Seems really fun, and really we've got lots of things to do for Uni-Y. Exciting exciting.
Anyway I'm really excited about things to come. Exciting year ahead. Now I just need to build that spiritual capacity to handle it. To prayer! Haha. The SMU-CHC fellowship is getting stronger; this week alone I saw them dunno how many times already. And it's only Wednesday.
God is really doing a new thing in SMU; and in my heart too. I need to rise up to the occasion to handle all these things coming my way. I think it's good I packed everything in two days. It's tiring but I feel like a useful person once again (after one month of 1/2 rotting at home).
Glory to God =)
Today's the third day of school, and the last day for the week! Muhahaha.
Yeah I did a two day week this semester, with 4 mods. I think I got really interesting mods like Ethics ( which my prof looks like Richard Branson, the CEO of Virgin Airlines) and Experiences in SME consulting, where my prof is the owner of one of the top SME consulting firms in Singapore.
So far so good; everything's going fine and thank God for complete healing. I'm feeling perfect today =). Well, everything's going back on track for 2008.
Exciting things to come:
1. Doing L'Oreal Brandstorm with Gershon and Charis. Always my honour to be in the company of church leaders. Heh..
2. Doing LKCSP Internal Case Challenge, but dunno with who. I still trying to find people, and asking Mr Vincent Ha to do with me but he doesn't seem very eager. I heard Gershon is judging this event. Haha.. so funny.
3. Doing the Citibank Case Challenge with Daryl, Xinhong and one more girl. Also my honour to do with them. I treasure the experience more than anything else la. To be stuck with zai people for one night and drawing whatever I can from them is just superb.
4. Webbie. Tianyi just showed me the amt of $$ he made from adsense just this week. I was like ...MOTIVATION (more than my monthly allowance la!). I told him to print screen that page and send to me as a jpg file. Now I leave it on my laptop. A reminder to not stop building no matter how slow I am.
5.Uni-Y. I just had a talk with Albert, the general secretary of YMCA, with Charlene and Daniel yesterday over dinner. I think we got more resources in our hands to do something big with Uni-Y than we think. He's even got the handphone of Eunice Olsen. Think might try asking her to come SMU to give talk. Heh. And then Steven Chia, maybe Elim Chew. See how la. Seems really fun, and really we've got lots of things to do for Uni-Y. Exciting exciting.
Anyway I'm really excited about things to come. Exciting year ahead. Now I just need to build that spiritual capacity to handle it. To prayer! Haha. The SMU-CHC fellowship is getting stronger; this week alone I saw them dunno how many times already. And it's only Wednesday.
God is really doing a new thing in SMU; and in my heart too. I need to rise up to the occasion to handle all these things coming my way. I think it's good I packed everything in two days. It's tiring but I feel like a useful person once again (after one month of 1/2 rotting at home).
Glory to God =)
Friday, January 4, 2008
SICS Camp
Just came back from SICS Camp. It was a 2 day 1 night retreat with the people from the Special Interest Community Service Clubs from SMU. They brought the presidents of these clubs and financial secretaries together, both to brief us on the financial procedures and also to share our club vision + how SICS can help us in our daily running of our clubs.
We went to this Siloso Beach Resort. Goodness! Now I know where the school money goes to. And the dinner today was like... Confirm at least $1000 total one.
And I have such a hard time trying to get $600 for my transport for my Freshmen Orientation Camp which WAS in August 2007.
Nonetheless, it was a fruitful time. Meeting the presidents of other clubs has really opened up alot of avenues for collaborations. And we did have an interesting 4.5 hour 1st SICS AGM. I thank God for that kinda authority and influence He has given me through all these years. I think I was the one who spoke the most during the meeting, my opinions and all, that i think everyone noticed me like nobody's business. Haha.. (In fact I thought I talked too much). But no la, I had serious stuff to say.
But really most of all, I appreciated the time of fellowship I had with Xiaohui.
Xiaohui's from my church too, she's a freshmen from School of Law, and she only just joined the Exco for Uni-Y. =)
I think we really had a good heart-to-heart, spirit-to-spirit talk and shared our grievances, struggles and problems we face in the theraupetic beaches of Sentosa.( It's amazing at night.. Haha)
Interesting thing is that she had this feeling she'll be talking to me about it at the beach the day before, and ME too, this thought of talking to her regarding it came the night before! It was even in my mind: the words I was going to ask her with!
When we realized that, we knew it was God who wanted both of us to minister to one another! Amazing. Haha. Another thing: It was the same issue we were dealing with.Goodness!
Honestly I really haven't had such a talk with anyone for a long long time. But it's a great feeling, to know that there are people around whom you can be totally open with without fear of betrayal or misunderstanding or bewilderment( that includes you too, Estelle. Haha). Now as I take a step of faith to open up to people, I remember this: God not only created us for worship, but also for fellowship. We're meant to share our lives, our hopes, dreams, desires, struggles, pains with one another.
Xiaohui, you're reading this as I type. Ha.(still in camp meeting) But I must say you're a really mature girl. I think your spirituality is amazing considering your age, and your time in church. Jia you and continue growing in Him! You're terrific!
(Here's her blog:Xiaohui)
The pain is temporary, but God's way always the best. That many years we can look back together and thank God that we chose the path that was pleasing to Him. One day we'll look back, our destiny in God fulfilled, and thank God He guided us through this day.
Meanwhile, our destiny awaits. =)
We went to this Siloso Beach Resort. Goodness! Now I know where the school money goes to. And the dinner today was like... Confirm at least $1000 total one.
And I have such a hard time trying to get $600 for my transport for my Freshmen Orientation Camp which WAS in August 2007.
Nonetheless, it was a fruitful time. Meeting the presidents of other clubs has really opened up alot of avenues for collaborations. And we did have an interesting 4.5 hour 1st SICS AGM. I thank God for that kinda authority and influence He has given me through all these years. I think I was the one who spoke the most during the meeting, my opinions and all, that i think everyone noticed me like nobody's business. Haha.. (In fact I thought I talked too much). But no la, I had serious stuff to say.
But really most of all, I appreciated the time of fellowship I had with Xiaohui.
Xiaohui's from my church too, she's a freshmen from School of Law, and she only just joined the Exco for Uni-Y. =)
I think we really had a good heart-to-heart, spirit-to-spirit talk and shared our grievances, struggles and problems we face in the theraupetic beaches of Sentosa.( It's amazing at night.. Haha)
Interesting thing is that she had this feeling she'll be talking to me about it at the beach the day before, and ME too, this thought of talking to her regarding it came the night before! It was even in my mind: the words I was going to ask her with!
When we realized that, we knew it was God who wanted both of us to minister to one another! Amazing. Haha. Another thing: It was the same issue we were dealing with.Goodness!
Honestly I really haven't had such a talk with anyone for a long long time. But it's a great feeling, to know that there are people around whom you can be totally open with without fear of betrayal or misunderstanding or bewilderment( that includes you too, Estelle. Haha). Now as I take a step of faith to open up to people, I remember this: God not only created us for worship, but also for fellowship. We're meant to share our lives, our hopes, dreams, desires, struggles, pains with one another.
Xiaohui, you're reading this as I type. Ha.(still in camp meeting) But I must say you're a really mature girl. I think your spirituality is amazing considering your age, and your time in church. Jia you and continue growing in Him! You're terrific!
(Here's her blog:Xiaohui)
The pain is temporary, but God's way always the best. That many years we can look back together and thank God that we chose the path that was pleasing to Him. One day we'll look back, our destiny in God fulfilled, and thank God He guided us through this day.
Meanwhile, our destiny awaits. =)
Thursday, January 3, 2008
1st Post of 2008
Well, 2008's here!
And I'm back too! Amidst the hurts and the pain, I sense that God is restoring me once again, to the visions I had earlier in the year, the focus that I used to have. Through this I've really learnt some stuff about myself too.. especially the about the wall i've built around myself.
Anyway thank God that He's a God of restoration; and a God of new beginnings. I see a new beginning in my heart even as the year begins, and another level with Him. Totally unexpected; the polar opposite of what I was planning, I must say... but God's way is always better.=)
I was just reading Maximised Manhood by the late Edwin Louis Cole.
Amazing book.
I think one word describes my feelings reading it: Conviction.
The book talks about how wimpy the men of our time have become, shirking responsiblity that's meant to be theirs and not leading in the family and in the church.
The broken family is often the result of the absentee and the irresponsible father who refuses to 'rise' up at home and lets his wife do what is rightfully his job.
We're responsible for what goes on in the family, what goes on in the church. We're responsible for developing our character, godliness, discipline, love for people. That's manhood for you.
Manhood is not measured by physical size, or by how loud you can shout, or how physically strong you are. It's measured by character, by spirit..
Develop capacity to handle responsiblity, because that's what God requires of you eventually. You are reponsible for everything that goes on in the household. Everything.
Ow. It took me only till chapter 3 for me to put down the book and repent before God and ask Him the grace to live it out. I realized how far off I am from the mark.
It's one of those truths that are really hard to swallow. God is holding you responsible. Don't be like Adam who pushed the blame to Eve with the "She made me do it."
God held Adam responsible.
And for me, there was this fear of picking up the book for more truths that were hard to swallow, coupled with that hunger of wanting to know more about what it takes...
Well, the hunger won out. I finished the book within 30 hours of buying it. Haha.
Anyway, it's an amazing book. Teaches you to be a real man. Read it.
As the saying goes: Male by birth, man by choice!
The ladies should read it too. Haha know what God expects of your future boyfriend or husband for that matter. Really, broken families are most often the result of the head of the household not being the man God called him to be.
Well, anyway I'm glad I'm still nowhere near that kind of responsiblity. At least I still have time to work on these areas but I mess anything else up.
I'm done with the book so it's free for borrowing. =) Priority goes to guys. Haha..
And I'm back too! Amidst the hurts and the pain, I sense that God is restoring me once again, to the visions I had earlier in the year, the focus that I used to have. Through this I've really learnt some stuff about myself too.. especially the about the wall i've built around myself.
Anyway thank God that He's a God of restoration; and a God of new beginnings. I see a new beginning in my heart even as the year begins, and another level with Him. Totally unexpected; the polar opposite of what I was planning, I must say... but God's way is always better.=)
I was just reading Maximised Manhood by the late Edwin Louis Cole.
Amazing book.
I think one word describes my feelings reading it: Conviction.
The book talks about how wimpy the men of our time have become, shirking responsiblity that's meant to be theirs and not leading in the family and in the church.
The broken family is often the result of the absentee and the irresponsible father who refuses to 'rise' up at home and lets his wife do what is rightfully his job.
We're responsible for what goes on in the family, what goes on in the church. We're responsible for developing our character, godliness, discipline, love for people. That's manhood for you.
Manhood is not measured by physical size, or by how loud you can shout, or how physically strong you are. It's measured by character, by spirit..
Develop capacity to handle responsiblity, because that's what God requires of you eventually. You are reponsible for everything that goes on in the household. Everything.
Ow. It took me only till chapter 3 for me to put down the book and repent before God and ask Him the grace to live it out. I realized how far off I am from the mark.
It's one of those truths that are really hard to swallow. God is holding you responsible. Don't be like Adam who pushed the blame to Eve with the "She made me do it."
God held Adam responsible.
And for me, there was this fear of picking up the book for more truths that were hard to swallow, coupled with that hunger of wanting to know more about what it takes...
Well, the hunger won out. I finished the book within 30 hours of buying it. Haha.
Anyway, it's an amazing book. Teaches you to be a real man. Read it.
As the saying goes: Male by birth, man by choice!
The ladies should read it too. Haha know what God expects of your future boyfriend or husband for that matter. Really, broken families are most often the result of the head of the household not being the man God called him to be.
Well, anyway I'm glad I'm still nowhere near that kind of responsiblity. At least I still have time to work on these areas but I mess anything else up.
I'm done with the book so it's free for borrowing. =) Priority goes to guys. Haha..
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