It's been a while

It's been almost 2 weeks since I posted.. really been so busy these days.

Ah well, it's good to have some time for a breather. Always look forward for church weekly; it's like a petrol kiosk where I refuel myself for the week ahead. Must be my secret to not burning out.. Haha.. No matter how I feel before service, it'll always been much better after service.

I feel sad. About some stuff in school. The people who know the reason this song was written will sorta get what I'm feeling.

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Once I have turned my face from thee

Yet you sought me and you cleansed me

Made me whole again

Jesus my Saviour

My beloved and friend

Your praises I bring

From my heart I sing

Draw me O draw me away

Messiah today

To your presence to stay

O Jesus now change me

And mould me

That I can be

Ever more true to thee

You are the shepherd of my heart

You have brought me to your chamber

My Master and King

You light up the darkness

And gave me your Word

That'll you never forsake me

Nor no ever will leave me

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Sometimes we expect more from some people but they never live up to that expectation, sometimes the people we trust and believe in choose to leave our side, choose not to walk with us anymore...

BUT we have a friend who will never leave us nor forsake us, who will be with us all the days of our lives. And that is my comfort =)

Mugging in Progress.

Just finished 2 Chapters of IE today; mugging for mid-terms on Saturday. 2 more to go. Sian. Seriously, I wonder if they called them textbooks because they don't qualify for people to read.

Ah well, today I looked in the mirror and was shocked at how thin I was. My friends have always been telling me that I should put on some weight. Today I was the one who's telling myself I should do something. Too much la. I can't take it anymore . Must stuff myself with food.

*goes to kitchen to get instant noodles*

Hai. too much. Must go gym liao. No more excuses!
=P

Give me strength to cross this water.

Burning out and Reignited

Friday's probably one of my worst days of the week, probably worse than Monday.



6 hour lesson straight, and not say they're the most interesting lessons. Accounting Information Systems(AIS) and Business Processes(BP). And at 3 pm, I'll usually be burned out already, as of yesterday. Maybe partly because I had a quiz and assignment for AIS to rush, and an assignment and a report for BP to rush. And the profs are so unengaging. I being my restless self, couldn't sit still in their class after a while.



And by 330pm, I had a slight headache, and I felt like I was burning out. There's so much to do in so little time. And I don't want to flunk my subjects this semester. I've been telling myself to start studying, and I've been telling myself for a month already. I just can't seem to get my engine started this semester. I'm already falling behind in my work already, and my work is becoming the slipshod quality it was in year 1. Bad bad bad...



I was feeling horrible on the way to church, that my friend who was with me was thinking I was really v quiet. I felt like telling my leader that I wanna take a break... I almost couldn't take it anymore. Another week like that and that's it for me. Ha..



But yet, while I was queuing at the back of the entrance of the main auditorium of the hall of the church, and the musicians and singers were singing in the background. I didn't notice, but gradually that feeling got away. I found strength to carry on again. Now this sounds damn cliché and all, but well, it's still true. Haha..



We had a long service till 1030 pm, and at the end, I felt totally refreshed and recharged, ready for another week. Once again, I looked to Him, and I believed that all things are possible. I thought about the things that were making me stressed again, and this time I looked with confidence and anticipation about the things that I'm going to do SO well! Ha.



When we look to our problems, everything seems too overwhelming, yet in all things, if we look to our God, all the things are possible =)



It's really amazing what a night in church can do. And I'm going tonight and tomorrow morning again. I bet I'll be physically tired, but spiritually ready for another week in school. Ha..



Hands that hold the heavens
Hold my heart tonight

Love pierce through the darkness
Glorious light

Words of life eternal
Heal my broken soul

To whom will I go
There is no one else but you alone.