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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Heaven

Had no class today, so came home the earliest in this term .2 pm. =)
I love days where I'm able to just spend most of the time at home. It's a good time of reflection and consolidation. Sometimes we're just too busy doing so much that we end up achieving little. That's why I really treasure these days that I'm able to be at home early. I know I won't be having it at all when I'm working already.

As I was lying on my bed, the birds outside the window were chirping, and the sun rays were shining through the windows. Really a good place to quieten my heart...

I imagine Heaven.

There will be the most beautiful trees, mountain ranges, most glorious, uncorrupted beauty of nature. I imagine all the most beautiful scenery in the world combined.

I imagine a day where there will be no more worries. No more troubles.

A day where all is done.
A day where wonders never cease.
All creation will sing.

Hmmm, I wonder how life will be like...
Where Earth is restored to its original creation. Where we can see the people that we so love, forever. I imagine seeing some of my friends who I have I lost contact for years, but in heaven, we'll have all the time we want to have spend lost quality time. Where we can jio each other out for supper anytime we want. Ha..
Where we can enjoy the presence of the most perfect friend we'll ever find.
No more tears. No more sorrow. No more hurts.

And that,
is where my hope stands.
All the heavens shout your praise,
Beautiful is our God
The universe will sing
Hallelujah to you, our King...

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Drowning in Economics

Sian.

I don't why I just cant sit still and listen to the prof. He just goes on and on. Ha.

He's just going on about all the Mathsy stuff which I don't think the non-economics students have to know. Well, I'll just try my best to listen.

Anyway I'm really glad, I just told my dad over email ( He is overseas) about my plans for the holidays. Interesting family dynamics you may say.. Haha. Anyway we don't really communicate at home, and the email is a first step for both of us to reconcile what's been done over the past 20 years. Prob talk about it some other time when I'm not bombarded with so much econs stuff. Ha

Gonna learn driving this holiday. Probably do auto since it's gonna take a shorter time. If next time need manual then say. I'm pretty lazy to want to take more effort to learn the manual car when we prob won't use it 95% of the time. Well, then things will be much more convenient when I get to drive. It takes about 2-3 months to learn right? Someone educate me on this. Ha.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Speaking of choice...

Deu 30:19… that I have set before you life and death …; therefore choose life…

Everyday of our lives, we either consciously make decisions to choose the better part, or we find it too hard to make a change, a decision and when we don’t make a choice, we unknowingly choose the bad part.

Personally, I feel our lives are like daily ‘forks’ on the road. Each wrong turn takes us a little away from the ‘right’, but too small to matter in a day; but yet when all these days add up, we one day find that we are really far away from the ‘right’ way already.

It’s really a daily choice to choose the right way. A little discomfort a day brings a reward like no other. It is uncomfortable, but yet nothing truly worth obtaining was ever gotten easily.

Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
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Truth is a question of fact. Whether we like it or not, truth is truth.

When you're lost somewhere in Woodlands, it doesn't matter what positive thinking, what positive self-talk you use. It doesn't matter if you believe you're in City Hall. The fact is, you're in Woodlands.

Sometimes the truth is uncomfortable, sometimes it requires us to do something we don't like to. But truth is not based on feeling, it is based on fact. It doesn't matter you don't like the fact you're in Woodlands, the truth is, you're in Woodlands. (No offence to people in Woodlands, I'm just using analogy. Ha).

Yet people choose to deny truth, because by acknowledging it means to change, means to let go of somethings in their lives. As the Chinese saying goes, zhong1 yan2 ni4 er3(the truth is hurting to the ear).

Faithful are the wounds of a friend, But the kisses of an enemy are deceitful.

But its like a person who just jumped off a tall building. He tries all means and ways to convince himself the law of gravity does not hold. But in the end it makes no difference what he thinks. The truth is, he's gonna hit the ground with a big splat.

Company Law Blues

The worst part of the week: Monday 330 pm Company Law.

1. It's one day after Sunday.
2. It's a 330 pm class, my most unproductive time.
3. It's Company Law. The reading type of module which I'm usually weaker at.

I really have trouble listening to him. Just keeps going on and on. Getting really restless. Can't understand how people can keep their full attention at him. Maybe it's cos I'm not a very qualitative person.

I always have thoughts when I'm on the bus, or when I'm walking home, its even when all my inspiration to write comes from.

Ah, now I remember what I was thinking about on the bus this morning.

I remember when I was like 9-10 years old I was noticed something interesting about myself. I remember I was thinking about my thinking process. I could clearly distinguish the two distinct levels of thinking. To which I then called, the first level of thinking, and the second level of thinking. Behind the thoughts in my head, there was another voice behind this thought. It was a quieter voice. I would know whether the thoughts i was thinking was right or wrong based on this quieter 'voice'.

Although I don't think I explained it well, I believe everyone knows what I'm talking about. We all have control over our thoughts. And that 'voice' cannot possibly be part of the thought, since that with that 'voice' we could control our thoughts.

Like, remember the times when someone really pissed you, and you kept replaying the scene in your mind again and again, making you more mad by the minute. Then suddenly, you shut off the thought because you knew it was going to make you do something you'll regret later.

I think the power of choose our thoughts is something very unique to the human being. The choice to shut off negative thoughts and mediate on positive thoughts, or vice versa.

That's also one reason I don't really buy into the evolution of apes to man. Apes don't control their thoughts. They act on instinct. They don't have a conscience. Scientists must explain how the idea of morals, or this 'voice' behind the thoughts came about from apes first before they can really say man came from apes.

That's also an interesting question. If Man came from apes, how did the idea of what is right and wrong evolve?




Well, some food for thought.. anyway back to Company Law. I'm already seriously lagging behind in class after writing this.. haha

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Busy-ness comes early this term

It's only week 4 the next week and I'm already falling back on everyone of my modules already. Seems like I haven't gotten back the momentum I had the last term, should be about time I psyched myself up for mugging liao. Heh.

Hmm, I'm already planning my holidays during the summer already. Really looking forward to it, but at the same time I don't want to neglect my work. I think this term will be pretty challenging one for me. I'm a very Maths person, and this term Company Law, International Economics and AIS are all 'reading' modules. Really need to work hard, or I'm gonna flunk this term.

Anyway, away from work, the recent FT sessions have really made me think about life working out there. I guess I don't ask for much, just that I have time for myself at night, not like the horror stories I hear from the auditors about never seeing the sun. Ha.

Today my friend also discussed with me regarding finding a job. I was asking her why couldn't we just migrate to some faraway land and be a farmer and live happily ever after. I think even at our state we probably could go to some far away country after 1-2 years and live happily ever after. She replied it was tough to find the right place, right people, right climate to go to. To which I said it was tough to work for 40 years too, especially possibly in a job we might dislike. Haha.

She said life is like that one. Miserable. Haha. Of course I don't agree. =P Anyway I told her I was messing with her.

But its a good time to think about what we want to do for the rest of our lives, isn't it? Yeap.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

How would you describe a tank?

Hmmm, how would you describe a tank? (A tank as in the military vehicle)
IF you could only use things purely from nature? You could use things like animals, trees, rocks but nothing man-made. How would you do it? What would you say about the armored body, the cannon? It would be a tough job to do it, wouldn't it?

Did you know there was someone in AD 70-95 who actually described a tank?!?! When I read it, I was really awed. This is super cool la! And guess where I found it?

In the Bible! My God, this is super interesting man...

The verse is actually found the last book of the Bible, the Book of Revelations describing the end of the world. John the disciple of Christ actually saw the end-times in a vision and he was actually describing the modern day vehicle in his day's terms!

I was really awed when I actually saw that passage.

Look at this:

Revelations 9:16-18
Now the number of the army of the horsemen was two hundred million; I heard the number of them. And thus I saw the horses in the vision: those who sat on them had breastplates of fiery red, hyacinth blue, and sulfur yellow; and the heads of the horses were like the heads of lions; and out of their mouths came fire, smoke, and brimstone. By these three plagues a third of mankind was killed—by the fire and the smoke and the brimstone which came out of their mouths.

Of course, because the writer of this book didn't write 'tank' explicitly( Well, he couldn't), so we can never be 100% sure that he is really talking about the tanks of this day. But if he was, well, it means that we got something to prepare for... it means the book is really from God, and it's really going to happen. Which is something I'm not the most comfortable with, to say the least.

But cool lah, I read the Book of Daniel as well, written in 600BC, also another book prophesing the future. It predicted the events that happened in 200BC so precisely and the rise of Alexander the Great, and his fall so accurately that it could only mean 2 things, God or someone written the book after all that had happened. Of cos historians and archaelogists have proven the latter wrong.

Well, whatever it is, it's really amazing to read these two books and comparing them with history. Haha it's surprising how I find time to do this in the middle of school term. Heh.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Sian

Got back the Cognitare case challenge results. Didn't win. =(

To be honest, I feel disappointed. I had expected we might do better than this. But at the same time, not to discredit the other 2 teams who won, I believe they won because they're really zai.

I had wanted the vouchers pretty badly, especially now was a time where my finances are a little tighter. But well, I'm still really thankful for my generous group members for giving up their share of the $50 vouchers for me =) Thanks guys. Love you all.

But yet this experience has really opened my eyes about myself too. It's always through the 'failures' and the horrendous results that give me a wake up call to do better. I was so fired up just now when I saw the results that I told myself I could not settle for second best anymore.

Sure, being the best is not everything. But it doesn't mean we should try our hardest to be the best we can be.

Oh well, I'll try again next year. Meanwhile, its back to the normal hectic life.

Monday, January 15, 2007

The point of all things.

On the night of cognitare, one of my friend asked me this question which I thought worth mentioning here.

"What's the point of doing this? We often like to talk about learning and self-developing but has anyone thought about what are we doing this for? In the end when we land into a job that requires our time like this; is this the kind of job/life we want?"

To which, of cos, I answered him accordingly.

But I think he has brought up an interesting point here. Most of the time, we're all so busy with doing things, busy with school work, busy with learning and developing our character. But have we ever thought about what are doing all these for?

Even from this point onwards, our bodies are degenerating day by day. In 30-40 year's time, some of our bodily systems will begin to malfunction. Optimistic or pessimistic, this is a fact that everyone has to face. Death comes to all some day.

Alot of people respond to the death of a loved one like it should never have happened, and many see early deaths as tragic. But the fact remains, death will come and take our physical bodies someday.

Why the desire to learn? We're all going to die someday anyway.
What's the point of learning now?
To support our loved ones? But they will die someday too.
To propogate the human race? Who gave us the responsibility to do so?
Even if we didn't, I'm sure someone would.

I had a friend who truly believed that there was no point in learning so much because it all ended up in death. He lived passively. Although he is really smart, he saw no point in being an achiever. He once told me that it didn't matter if he earned alot or earned a little. He felt it made no difference in the end. Couldn't one be happy earning just enough?

Truly, I couldn't fault him for thinking this way. He's probably more consistent in his thinking and actions than most people actually are. He actually lived out his beliefs compared to most people who lived out their lives inconsistent with their deepest beliefs.

Unless we can answer the why, there is no reason to do the how.Am I being pessimistic? No. I ask questions that need to be answered. Trying to live a life happily without answering its deepest questions is not being optimistic, rather it sounds more like denial.

Now this all sounds really sad and all. It really seems that at this point we're either gonna try to live our life denying this, or find some 'belief' that will help get through it happily. I don't propose either. I have a different light at the end of the tunnel! In fact the answer to this might just lie in nature - the birth of the human foetus.

The foetus of a child in the mother's womb live and feed through umbilical cord. To survive, the child simply had to have constant food being fed through the umbilical cord. But yet, the foetus over time begins to develop limbs. This is interesting, because the foetus does not need limbs to survive in the womb. The limbs of the foetus were nonetheless developed because someday, it would be put to use. Someday it would emerge from the womb to become a walking human being.

Do us humans need character, wisdom and knowledge to live? We only need to eat, drink and breathe to survive. But inherently, we know that the development of character, wisdom, knowledge is 'good'. Want it or not, even as our physical bodies degenerate and die off someday, but there is this part of us, the consciousness, the character, the mind that is growing and developing everyday.

Is it possible that we are in another 'womb'? Is our character, knowledge like the limbs of the foetus; someday coming to use in a great way? What greater entity would we 'emerge' into? Like a baby in the womb, it is a question that we cannot answer now. (Imagine you telling a 5 month old foetus about why his legs are for; he obviously won't understand)

But yet we'll see, won't we?

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Cognitare Business Case Challege

Just finished the Business Case Challenge today at 5.30 am.Started 4 pm on Friday. For the benefit of those who don't know, the Case Challenge is a competition where a team of 4 is given a report of a particular business. From that report, we are supposed to think up strategies and actions that the company can take to either save itself or further improve its market position.

Well, wasn't particularly interested in joining in the first place, but after I realized that the winning team gets $500 Kino vouchers... well.. Haha.

So it was a night of intellectual sparring last night, with ideas being thrown here and there. Pretty good stuff, and at about 3 am last night, I already 'switched off', which I felt really bad, but much as I felt bad, I felt more like dozing off. Haha. But I'm glad we have a good team that pulled it off pretty well. Pray I can win those vouchers! Haha. So many books I wanna buy...

I realized that I'm more interested in shopping for books than actually reading them. Feels like how people actually have this urge to buy clothes but end up wearing them only once or twice. lol. I've got like 10+ unfinished books, and so little time... and that's not including my textbooks.

Oh well, its 1 am and I'm going to my friend's house in the morning. There's a gathering there. Haha. Will be glad to see everyone there.

Back to blogging

Well, decided to put the blog back up after I realized quite alot of people actually read it. Ha.

Been a long day, don't know why I put this blog back up when I don't even feel like posting now. Alright I'll blog another day. Need to mug my company law. It's only week 2 and I'm already behind. This is unprecendented. Haha.