Had a superb service.
Dr Bernard just has a way of putting across terms in an articulate, sophisticated way.
God sees us not as we are, but what we can be. We can be the junkiest of the junk, but God never sees us as that, but what we can become in Him.
Amazing.
Jack Neo came up to share his testimony and about his movie on stage!
He said that when he was making Ah Long Pte Ltd, he felt that there was something missing in the movie, but he couldn't figure out what. Then he prayed to God and asked God for direction, and " I believe God spoke to me, and gave me a prompting and I found what was missing" Wow. This from the mouth of Jack Neo. Haha.
"And as for what God spoke to me about the movie, go and watch it and I believe God will speak to you too!"
That was funny. Haha.
And Pastor said that Liu Geng Hong is giving Jay Chou Bible study and he's getting more on fire for God each day! Wow. =) Praise the Lord. I think the public declaration of his faith will be the most impactful throughout Asia in time!
I told God," God, I want to be part of all these, I don't want to left behind.."
Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Memories of time past
It's like 4 am in the morning and I got attacked my mosquitoes on my bed, so I laid on my bed fighting the itches and trying to get back to sleep. Church at 730 am ( I have to leave house then) tmr! But as I tried to get back to sleep, all these memories started coming back..
Specifically of my time in OCS.
Suddenly I was thinking about my time in my bunk in OCS. In service term 1. It was a sad time then. I felt like someone who had their freedom given to them and then taken away again. Context: I was in OCS Tri-Service which lasted 1 month before I went to Paya Lebar Air Base for Pilot Selection for 2 months. During that time I had more freedom; could come out more often and stay out, and Australia was really a blast. Haha. Then suddenly I was back in the OCS bunk again.
Can imagine how depressing it can be. But I rem it was a very aimless time for me. I didn't know God then. I didn't know what I was there for. Sure I had that potential to do it; I knew I had, but I didn't see the point. All I wanted was freedom.
And then I had my back injury, which caused me to had to do regular visits to the physiotherapist.
*Flash forward a few months*
I'm doing guard duty now, but it's not the regular guard duty. I was supposed to stand at the edge of a training area to make sure no one got in. Supposed to stay from morning till late at night. Alone.
There was going to be no one within 1 km of me. Only trees and mosquitoes and what not.
It was still okay in the day, spent it fighting mosquitoes, but when night fell..
All I saw was a gravel road and forest all in front of me. Hp batt was running low. Needed company.
There was a shed by the side of the gate for me to site down, but it was small. Only enough to fit a chair and a little more. But I didn't want to sit inside. It would obstruct my vision.
So I sat in the middle of the gravel road, with the gate just behind me. Forest. Darkness.
I'm glad I didn't allow fear to get to me that night. And well, glad I didn't see anything. Ha..
I was raped by mosquitoes though. Had like at least 40 bites on my back by them. They could go through the uniform. Super mosquitoes.
Well, I was so glad when I saw the Rover come and pick me up for the night, at about 11pm like that. Home at last. Or camp. Haha.
*Flash*
I sit in the office with Amin, the admin clerk and LTA Spencer. I remember the Staff Sgt's face as well. Not a very nice guy. But LTA Spencer and Amin were really nice people and they were my company after I out of coursed from OCS.
They're not really very kind to people who genuinely had problems because alot of times there are people who 'chao keng'. I remember my PC wasn't very happy with me. He thinks I'm not pushing myself hard enough.
But it's a back problem, and even the physio told me not to carry weights. I think the physio got a littled peeved when he heard my PC still asked me to do stuff. Ha..
But anyway I Out of Coursed eventually and spent the remaining of my OCS days before I left for a unit with the Echo HQ people, Amin, LTA Spencer and Major Lam. Major Lam was another really nice uncle. Haha.
Anyway I only keep in contact with LTA Spencer now, once a year. On our birthdays..
Oh then LTA Adrian who's one of the company's officers: Think he just graduated from SMU last sem, or maybe going to this sem. See him once in a while but he doesn't recognize me..
*fast forward*
So I'm on a van now. Travelling to my new unit from OCS.
And I end up in Keat Hong Camp as a signaller. Really run down, and all the things were falling apart. It was a new to me. It was about 10 months in schools where all the training took place, now I was in an operational unit...
which the men practically did nothing but eat and sleep! Ha..
Anyway that's another story for another day.
But to think back on those days. I was just ... there. No aim. Just there. Lived day by day. All I was looking for was the time I could go back, and spend time outside in civilization.
But thank God for a purpose now. For zoe life, a life beyond the natural. A life filled with visions and dreams and hope for the future. Because God answers the question of where we come from, we also know where we're headed, our destiny.
Specifically of my time in OCS.
Suddenly I was thinking about my time in my bunk in OCS. In service term 1. It was a sad time then. I felt like someone who had their freedom given to them and then taken away again. Context: I was in OCS Tri-Service which lasted 1 month before I went to Paya Lebar Air Base for Pilot Selection for 2 months. During that time I had more freedom; could come out more often and stay out, and Australia was really a blast. Haha. Then suddenly I was back in the OCS bunk again.
Can imagine how depressing it can be. But I rem it was a very aimless time for me. I didn't know God then. I didn't know what I was there for. Sure I had that potential to do it; I knew I had, but I didn't see the point. All I wanted was freedom.
And then I had my back injury, which caused me to had to do regular visits to the physiotherapist.
*Flash forward a few months*
I'm doing guard duty now, but it's not the regular guard duty. I was supposed to stand at the edge of a training area to make sure no one got in. Supposed to stay from morning till late at night. Alone.
There was going to be no one within 1 km of me. Only trees and mosquitoes and what not.
It was still okay in the day, spent it fighting mosquitoes, but when night fell..
All I saw was a gravel road and forest all in front of me. Hp batt was running low. Needed company.
There was a shed by the side of the gate for me to site down, but it was small. Only enough to fit a chair and a little more. But I didn't want to sit inside. It would obstruct my vision.
So I sat in the middle of the gravel road, with the gate just behind me. Forest. Darkness.
I'm glad I didn't allow fear to get to me that night. And well, glad I didn't see anything. Ha..
I was raped by mosquitoes though. Had like at least 40 bites on my back by them. They could go through the uniform. Super mosquitoes.
Well, I was so glad when I saw the Rover come and pick me up for the night, at about 11pm like that. Home at last. Or camp. Haha.
*Flash*
I sit in the office with Amin, the admin clerk and LTA Spencer. I remember the Staff Sgt's face as well. Not a very nice guy. But LTA Spencer and Amin were really nice people and they were my company after I out of coursed from OCS.
They're not really very kind to people who genuinely had problems because alot of times there are people who 'chao keng'. I remember my PC wasn't very happy with me. He thinks I'm not pushing myself hard enough.
But it's a back problem, and even the physio told me not to carry weights. I think the physio got a littled peeved when he heard my PC still asked me to do stuff. Ha..
But anyway I Out of Coursed eventually and spent the remaining of my OCS days before I left for a unit with the Echo HQ people, Amin, LTA Spencer and Major Lam. Major Lam was another really nice uncle. Haha.
Anyway I only keep in contact with LTA Spencer now, once a year. On our birthdays..
Oh then LTA Adrian who's one of the company's officers: Think he just graduated from SMU last sem, or maybe going to this sem. See him once in a while but he doesn't recognize me..
*fast forward*
So I'm on a van now. Travelling to my new unit from OCS.
And I end up in Keat Hong Camp as a signaller. Really run down, and all the things were falling apart. It was a new to me. It was about 10 months in schools where all the training took place, now I was in an operational unit...
which the men practically did nothing but eat and sleep! Ha..
Anyway that's another story for another day.
But to think back on those days. I was just ... there. No aim. Just there. Lived day by day. All I was looking for was the time I could go back, and spend time outside in civilization.
But thank God for a purpose now. For zoe life, a life beyond the natural. A life filled with visions and dreams and hope for the future. Because God answers the question of where we come from, we also know where we're headed, our destiny.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Updates.
Haven't update my blog for a long time.
Being doing fine =)
New move of God in my life. Thank God for Sunday Service. Presence of God was so strong I was trembling. Amazing.
Spent 1 hour for quiet time with God last night. Haven't done that in a while. Usually it's just 20 mins. And it's amazing since it's on Monday night ( I have two lessons on Monday and 2 on Tuesday), so I'm supposed to be busy.
Anyway this period will be a little busier because im trying to establish Uni-Y as a proper club, with proper membership, with proper progression up the structure, but at the same time, staying personal, and building that culture within the club.
We've had a few meetings so far, and I see that we're really going to have a great 1 year together. A year of change.
This week will be more relaxed for me; less meetings and all. =) But still have to come back school everyday despite having a two day week. Well, I'm not complaining. I think being in school keeps me in a working state; staying at home has this 'slacking' effect.
Well it's week 3 of school, going strong, needing to catch up though. I like my mods this sem: SME consulting and Ethics. Quite fun..Ha..
Being doing fine =)
New move of God in my life. Thank God for Sunday Service. Presence of God was so strong I was trembling. Amazing.
Spent 1 hour for quiet time with God last night. Haven't done that in a while. Usually it's just 20 mins. And it's amazing since it's on Monday night ( I have two lessons on Monday and 2 on Tuesday), so I'm supposed to be busy.
Anyway this period will be a little busier because im trying to establish Uni-Y as a proper club, with proper membership, with proper progression up the structure, but at the same time, staying personal, and building that culture within the club.
We've had a few meetings so far, and I see that we're really going to have a great 1 year together. A year of change.
This week will be more relaxed for me; less meetings and all. =) But still have to come back school everyday despite having a two day week. Well, I'm not complaining. I think being in school keeps me in a working state; staying at home has this 'slacking' effect.
Well it's week 3 of school, going strong, needing to catch up though. I like my mods this sem: SME consulting and Ethics. Quite fun..Ha..
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Crazy Day
I had a crazy 2 days. Haha.
LOreal Brandstorm with Gershon and Charis yesterday from 3pm till 11pm and then today we rushed to school at 815 am to prepare our presentation at 930am.
This has got to be the biggest stunt we have done. The night before we haven't even got our slides joined together and we didn't even rehearse a single time before we went for the presentation.
I was telling Gershon this is so like a case challenge.
Anyway we got whacked very badly by the professor cos our presentation had no backing. I think what the prof said, though fierce, was true la. I think even through this we also learnt quite a little from this time.
Cool. Now got prayer meeting to lead, and sermon to prepare. Haha.
LOreal Brandstorm with Gershon and Charis yesterday from 3pm till 11pm and then today we rushed to school at 815 am to prepare our presentation at 930am.
This has got to be the biggest stunt we have done. The night before we haven't even got our slides joined together and we didn't even rehearse a single time before we went for the presentation.
I was telling Gershon this is so like a case challenge.
Anyway we got whacked very badly by the professor cos our presentation had no backing. I think what the prof said, though fierce, was true la. I think even through this we also learnt quite a little from this time.
Cool. Now got prayer meeting to lead, and sermon to prepare. Haha.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Busy busy
Now everything seems to be piling on me like nobody's business!
Today I received, conservatively; 30 emails in my inbox, of which only 20% is email blasters from the school.
Tmr I have a meeting with the UOB-SMU client,
and I have to play the guitar for cell group meeting tmr, of which I'm horrible at it so i need LOTS of practice.
Then my ministry, bookstore just asked me to compile finances by the weekend ( I'm the treasurer for the team) and then ask me to rise up to be come a small group leader. So must attend more meetings! zzz. I think I talk to my team leader about it. Ha.. not too eager.
Then L'Oreal Brandstorm gotta prepare survey + prepare for presentation next Monday. Goodness. So fast.
Plus all the Uni-Y stuff, emails, planning and all.
And its only the 1st week of school!
Wow.
I was telling a friend, I feel useful. Haha. I always like to quote John Calvin ->
We're not made to be useless blocks of wood.
Anyway, somehow I managed to find the time to go register my driving at BBDC today. No class la, and during the trip I was reading this book Wild at Heart.
It's a superb book! I recommend all guys ( and girls ) to read it.
God made us Spirit, Soul and Body. And while most Christian books touch on the spirit, this one touches on the soul. It talks about how men are really created to be wild at heart. That there's something inside us that yearns to be more...
The Bible says we're made to be in God's image. And one thing the Lord is, is that He is a warrior ( Exodus 15:3). Although we see the gentle, graceful and merciful side of Jesus in the New Testament, we must never forget how He treats His enemies.
While most potrayals of Jesus are those of Mother Theresa like, we must not forget how he walked into the temple and overturned the tables of the traders, and how he 'picked fights' with the Pharisees. And how in the Old Testament, God sent armies, pestilence, plagues upon his enemies.
I think its no mistake, our God is a fierce, passionate warrior
And so are we men. The book says, that every man, in his heart of hearts, is looking for
1.a adventure to live for,
2.a battle to fight,
3.and a beauty to be swept off her feet.
I read it with a sparkle in my eyes. Haha. Now that's true.
No wonder all those war movies with potraying a courageous man willing to die for a cause ( Braveheart, 300, Kingdom of Heaven, Saving Private Ryan) always appealed to me, and I would hopefully think, to guys in general.
Then it goes on to talk about how society has really stifled this side of the man through its many 'don'ts', and through the pressure for him to be a 'nice' guy. I think there's a very interesting part, which really set me thinking: Is that question that alot men fear to know the real answer: Am I really a man?
And alot of over-achieving people are often motivated by this fear. This fear that they just might not be enough, and they might be 'exposed' that they are not real men after all.
Wow. It's an amazing book. I'm at Chapter 4 only, but this is really good. It hits the spot, really.
And it also talks about the three desires of a woman's soul, which are....
*end of post. To find out more, please stay tuned! =P*
Today I received, conservatively; 30 emails in my inbox, of which only 20% is email blasters from the school.
Tmr I have a meeting with the UOB-SMU client,
and I have to play the guitar for cell group meeting tmr, of which I'm horrible at it so i need LOTS of practice.
Then my ministry, bookstore just asked me to compile finances by the weekend ( I'm the treasurer for the team) and then ask me to rise up to be come a small group leader. So must attend more meetings! zzz. I think I talk to my team leader about it. Ha.. not too eager.
Then L'Oreal Brandstorm gotta prepare survey + prepare for presentation next Monday. Goodness. So fast.
Plus all the Uni-Y stuff, emails, planning and all.
And its only the 1st week of school!
Wow.
I was telling a friend, I feel useful. Haha. I always like to quote John Calvin ->
We're not made to be useless blocks of wood.
Anyway, somehow I managed to find the time to go register my driving at BBDC today. No class la, and during the trip I was reading this book Wild at Heart.
It's a superb book! I recommend all guys ( and girls ) to read it.
God made us Spirit, Soul and Body. And while most Christian books touch on the spirit, this one touches on the soul. It talks about how men are really created to be wild at heart. That there's something inside us that yearns to be more...
The Bible says we're made to be in God's image. And one thing the Lord is, is that He is a warrior ( Exodus 15:3). Although we see the gentle, graceful and merciful side of Jesus in the New Testament, we must never forget how He treats His enemies.
While most potrayals of Jesus are those of Mother Theresa like, we must not forget how he walked into the temple and overturned the tables of the traders, and how he 'picked fights' with the Pharisees. And how in the Old Testament, God sent armies, pestilence, plagues upon his enemies.
I think its no mistake, our God is a fierce, passionate warrior
And so are we men. The book says, that every man, in his heart of hearts, is looking for
1.a adventure to live for,
2.a battle to fight,
3.and a beauty to be swept off her feet.
I read it with a sparkle in my eyes. Haha. Now that's true.
No wonder all those war movies with potraying a courageous man willing to die for a cause ( Braveheart, 300, Kingdom of Heaven, Saving Private Ryan) always appealed to me, and I would hopefully think, to guys in general.
Then it goes on to talk about how society has really stifled this side of the man through its many 'don'ts', and through the pressure for him to be a 'nice' guy. I think there's a very interesting part, which really set me thinking: Is that question that alot men fear to know the real answer: Am I really a man?
And alot of over-achieving people are often motivated by this fear. This fear that they just might not be enough, and they might be 'exposed' that they are not real men after all.
Wow. It's an amazing book. I'm at Chapter 4 only, but this is really good. It hits the spot, really.
And it also talks about the three desires of a woman's soul, which are....
*end of post. To find out more, please stay tuned! =P*
Monday, January 7, 2008
Post No.100!
Here at post 100 already.
Today's the third day of school, and the last day for the week! Muhahaha.
Yeah I did a two day week this semester, with 4 mods. I think I got really interesting mods like Ethics ( which my prof looks like Richard Branson, the CEO of Virgin Airlines) and Experiences in SME consulting, where my prof is the owner of one of the top SME consulting firms in Singapore.
So far so good; everything's going fine and thank God for complete healing. I'm feeling perfect today =). Well, everything's going back on track for 2008.
Exciting things to come:
1. Doing L'Oreal Brandstorm with Gershon and Charis. Always my honour to be in the company of church leaders. Heh..
2. Doing LKCSP Internal Case Challenge, but dunno with who. I still trying to find people, and asking Mr Vincent Ha to do with me but he doesn't seem very eager. I heard Gershon is judging this event. Haha.. so funny.
3. Doing the Citibank Case Challenge with Daryl, Xinhong and one more girl. Also my honour to do with them. I treasure the experience more than anything else la. To be stuck with zai people for one night and drawing whatever I can from them is just superb.
4. Webbie. Tianyi just showed me the amt of $$ he made from adsense just this week. I was like ...MOTIVATION (more than my monthly allowance la!). I told him to print screen that page and send to me as a jpg file. Now I leave it on my laptop. A reminder to not stop building no matter how slow I am.
5.Uni-Y. I just had a talk with Albert, the general secretary of YMCA, with Charlene and Daniel yesterday over dinner. I think we got more resources in our hands to do something big with Uni-Y than we think. He's even got the handphone of Eunice Olsen. Think might try asking her to come SMU to give talk. Heh. And then Steven Chia, maybe Elim Chew. See how la. Seems really fun, and really we've got lots of things to do for Uni-Y. Exciting exciting.
Anyway I'm really excited about things to come. Exciting year ahead. Now I just need to build that spiritual capacity to handle it. To prayer! Haha. The SMU-CHC fellowship is getting stronger; this week alone I saw them dunno how many times already. And it's only Wednesday.
God is really doing a new thing in SMU; and in my heart too. I need to rise up to the occasion to handle all these things coming my way. I think it's good I packed everything in two days. It's tiring but I feel like a useful person once again (after one month of 1/2 rotting at home).
Glory to God =)
Today's the third day of school, and the last day for the week! Muhahaha.
Yeah I did a two day week this semester, with 4 mods. I think I got really interesting mods like Ethics ( which my prof looks like Richard Branson, the CEO of Virgin Airlines) and Experiences in SME consulting, where my prof is the owner of one of the top SME consulting firms in Singapore.
So far so good; everything's going fine and thank God for complete healing. I'm feeling perfect today =). Well, everything's going back on track for 2008.
Exciting things to come:
1. Doing L'Oreal Brandstorm with Gershon and Charis. Always my honour to be in the company of church leaders. Heh..
2. Doing LKCSP Internal Case Challenge, but dunno with who. I still trying to find people, and asking Mr Vincent Ha to do with me but he doesn't seem very eager. I heard Gershon is judging this event. Haha.. so funny.
3. Doing the Citibank Case Challenge with Daryl, Xinhong and one more girl. Also my honour to do with them. I treasure the experience more than anything else la. To be stuck with zai people for one night and drawing whatever I can from them is just superb.
4. Webbie. Tianyi just showed me the amt of $$ he made from adsense just this week. I was like ...MOTIVATION (more than my monthly allowance la!). I told him to print screen that page and send to me as a jpg file. Now I leave it on my laptop. A reminder to not stop building no matter how slow I am.
5.Uni-Y. I just had a talk with Albert, the general secretary of YMCA, with Charlene and Daniel yesterday over dinner. I think we got more resources in our hands to do something big with Uni-Y than we think. He's even got the handphone of Eunice Olsen. Think might try asking her to come SMU to give talk. Heh. And then Steven Chia, maybe Elim Chew. See how la. Seems really fun, and really we've got lots of things to do for Uni-Y. Exciting exciting.
Anyway I'm really excited about things to come. Exciting year ahead. Now I just need to build that spiritual capacity to handle it. To prayer! Haha. The SMU-CHC fellowship is getting stronger; this week alone I saw them dunno how many times already. And it's only Wednesday.
God is really doing a new thing in SMU; and in my heart too. I need to rise up to the occasion to handle all these things coming my way. I think it's good I packed everything in two days. It's tiring but I feel like a useful person once again (after one month of 1/2 rotting at home).
Glory to God =)
Friday, January 4, 2008
SICS Camp
Just came back from SICS Camp. It was a 2 day 1 night retreat with the people from the Special Interest Community Service Clubs from SMU. They brought the presidents of these clubs and financial secretaries together, both to brief us on the financial procedures and also to share our club vision + how SICS can help us in our daily running of our clubs.
We went to this Siloso Beach Resort. Goodness! Now I know where the school money goes to. And the dinner today was like... Confirm at least $1000 total one.
And I have such a hard time trying to get $600 for my transport for my Freshmen Orientation Camp which WAS in August 2007.
Nonetheless, it was a fruitful time. Meeting the presidents of other clubs has really opened up alot of avenues for collaborations. And we did have an interesting 4.5 hour 1st SICS AGM. I thank God for that kinda authority and influence He has given me through all these years. I think I was the one who spoke the most during the meeting, my opinions and all, that i think everyone noticed me like nobody's business. Haha.. (In fact I thought I talked too much). But no la, I had serious stuff to say.
But really most of all, I appreciated the time of fellowship I had with Xiaohui.
Xiaohui's from my church too, she's a freshmen from School of Law, and she only just joined the Exco for Uni-Y. =)
I think we really had a good heart-to-heart, spirit-to-spirit talk and shared our grievances, struggles and problems we face in the theraupetic beaches of Sentosa.( It's amazing at night.. Haha)
Interesting thing is that she had this feeling she'll be talking to me about it at the beach the day before, and ME too, this thought of talking to her regarding it came the night before! It was even in my mind: the words I was going to ask her with!
When we realized that, we knew it was God who wanted both of us to minister to one another! Amazing. Haha. Another thing: It was the same issue we were dealing with.Goodness!
Honestly I really haven't had such a talk with anyone for a long long time. But it's a great feeling, to know that there are people around whom you can be totally open with without fear of betrayal or misunderstanding or bewilderment( that includes you too, Estelle. Haha). Now as I take a step of faith to open up to people, I remember this: God not only created us for worship, but also for fellowship. We're meant to share our lives, our hopes, dreams, desires, struggles, pains with one another.
Xiaohui, you're reading this as I type. Ha.(still in camp meeting) But I must say you're a really mature girl. I think your spirituality is amazing considering your age, and your time in church. Jia you and continue growing in Him! You're terrific!
(Here's her blog:Xiaohui)
The pain is temporary, but God's way always the best. That many years we can look back together and thank God that we chose the path that was pleasing to Him. One day we'll look back, our destiny in God fulfilled, and thank God He guided us through this day.
Meanwhile, our destiny awaits. =)
We went to this Siloso Beach Resort. Goodness! Now I know where the school money goes to. And the dinner today was like... Confirm at least $1000 total one.
And I have such a hard time trying to get $600 for my transport for my Freshmen Orientation Camp which WAS in August 2007.
Nonetheless, it was a fruitful time. Meeting the presidents of other clubs has really opened up alot of avenues for collaborations. And we did have an interesting 4.5 hour 1st SICS AGM. I thank God for that kinda authority and influence He has given me through all these years. I think I was the one who spoke the most during the meeting, my opinions and all, that i think everyone noticed me like nobody's business. Haha.. (In fact I thought I talked too much). But no la, I had serious stuff to say.
But really most of all, I appreciated the time of fellowship I had with Xiaohui.
Xiaohui's from my church too, she's a freshmen from School of Law, and she only just joined the Exco for Uni-Y. =)
I think we really had a good heart-to-heart, spirit-to-spirit talk and shared our grievances, struggles and problems we face in the theraupetic beaches of Sentosa.( It's amazing at night.. Haha)
Interesting thing is that she had this feeling she'll be talking to me about it at the beach the day before, and ME too, this thought of talking to her regarding it came the night before! It was even in my mind: the words I was going to ask her with!
When we realized that, we knew it was God who wanted both of us to minister to one another! Amazing. Haha. Another thing: It was the same issue we were dealing with.Goodness!
Honestly I really haven't had such a talk with anyone for a long long time. But it's a great feeling, to know that there are people around whom you can be totally open with without fear of betrayal or misunderstanding or bewilderment( that includes you too, Estelle. Haha). Now as I take a step of faith to open up to people, I remember this: God not only created us for worship, but also for fellowship. We're meant to share our lives, our hopes, dreams, desires, struggles, pains with one another.
Xiaohui, you're reading this as I type. Ha.(still in camp meeting) But I must say you're a really mature girl. I think your spirituality is amazing considering your age, and your time in church. Jia you and continue growing in Him! You're terrific!
(Here's her blog:Xiaohui)
The pain is temporary, but God's way always the best. That many years we can look back together and thank God that we chose the path that was pleasing to Him. One day we'll look back, our destiny in God fulfilled, and thank God He guided us through this day.
Meanwhile, our destiny awaits. =)
Thursday, January 3, 2008
1st Post of 2008
Well, 2008's here!
And I'm back too! Amidst the hurts and the pain, I sense that God is restoring me once again, to the visions I had earlier in the year, the focus that I used to have. Through this I've really learnt some stuff about myself too.. especially the about the wall i've built around myself.
Anyway thank God that He's a God of restoration; and a God of new beginnings. I see a new beginning in my heart even as the year begins, and another level with Him. Totally unexpected; the polar opposite of what I was planning, I must say... but God's way is always better.=)
I was just reading Maximised Manhood by the late Edwin Louis Cole.
Amazing book.
I think one word describes my feelings reading it: Conviction.
The book talks about how wimpy the men of our time have become, shirking responsiblity that's meant to be theirs and not leading in the family and in the church.
The broken family is often the result of the absentee and the irresponsible father who refuses to 'rise' up at home and lets his wife do what is rightfully his job.
We're responsible for what goes on in the family, what goes on in the church. We're responsible for developing our character, godliness, discipline, love for people. That's manhood for you.
Manhood is not measured by physical size, or by how loud you can shout, or how physically strong you are. It's measured by character, by spirit..
Develop capacity to handle responsiblity, because that's what God requires of you eventually. You are reponsible for everything that goes on in the household. Everything.
Ow. It took me only till chapter 3 for me to put down the book and repent before God and ask Him the grace to live it out. I realized how far off I am from the mark.
It's one of those truths that are really hard to swallow. God is holding you responsible. Don't be like Adam who pushed the blame to Eve with the "She made me do it."
God held Adam responsible.
And for me, there was this fear of picking up the book for more truths that were hard to swallow, coupled with that hunger of wanting to know more about what it takes...
Well, the hunger won out. I finished the book within 30 hours of buying it. Haha.
Anyway, it's an amazing book. Teaches you to be a real man. Read it.
As the saying goes: Male by birth, man by choice!
The ladies should read it too. Haha know what God expects of your future boyfriend or husband for that matter. Really, broken families are most often the result of the head of the household not being the man God called him to be.
Well, anyway I'm glad I'm still nowhere near that kind of responsiblity. At least I still have time to work on these areas but I mess anything else up.
I'm done with the book so it's free for borrowing. =) Priority goes to guys. Haha..
And I'm back too! Amidst the hurts and the pain, I sense that God is restoring me once again, to the visions I had earlier in the year, the focus that I used to have. Through this I've really learnt some stuff about myself too.. especially the about the wall i've built around myself.
Anyway thank God that He's a God of restoration; and a God of new beginnings. I see a new beginning in my heart even as the year begins, and another level with Him. Totally unexpected; the polar opposite of what I was planning, I must say... but God's way is always better.=)
I was just reading Maximised Manhood by the late Edwin Louis Cole.
Amazing book.
I think one word describes my feelings reading it: Conviction.
The book talks about how wimpy the men of our time have become, shirking responsiblity that's meant to be theirs and not leading in the family and in the church.
The broken family is often the result of the absentee and the irresponsible father who refuses to 'rise' up at home and lets his wife do what is rightfully his job.
We're responsible for what goes on in the family, what goes on in the church. We're responsible for developing our character, godliness, discipline, love for people. That's manhood for you.
Manhood is not measured by physical size, or by how loud you can shout, or how physically strong you are. It's measured by character, by spirit..
Develop capacity to handle responsiblity, because that's what God requires of you eventually. You are reponsible for everything that goes on in the household. Everything.
Ow. It took me only till chapter 3 for me to put down the book and repent before God and ask Him the grace to live it out. I realized how far off I am from the mark.
It's one of those truths that are really hard to swallow. God is holding you responsible. Don't be like Adam who pushed the blame to Eve with the "She made me do it."
God held Adam responsible.
And for me, there was this fear of picking up the book for more truths that were hard to swallow, coupled with that hunger of wanting to know more about what it takes...
Well, the hunger won out. I finished the book within 30 hours of buying it. Haha.
Anyway, it's an amazing book. Teaches you to be a real man. Read it.
As the saying goes: Male by birth, man by choice!
The ladies should read it too. Haha know what God expects of your future boyfriend or husband for that matter. Really, broken families are most often the result of the head of the household not being the man God called him to be.
Well, anyway I'm glad I'm still nowhere near that kind of responsiblity. At least I still have time to work on these areas but I mess anything else up.
I'm done with the book so it's free for borrowing. =) Priority goes to guys. Haha..
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